i haven been waiting for my posting result to be out. i am eager 2 know where i will be working so that i can decide whether i should buy new furniture to be put in my room and whether i can go out for a trip b4 strting to work. when more and more ppl from my batch got their posting, i got more and more impatient.
today, m.ying called to tell me that she saw my name on the list of ppl working in kuching general hospital. so, guess that's it, i am goin to work in kuching. i am relieved but at the same time, i am a bit beh syok. gila meh? i tot this is wat u want, chong sue choo??
i know wat i am unhappy about. i dun like it when there is always ppl telling u wat u shud or shud not do. futhermore, they have the 'power' to stop u from doing something or make u change ur mind. i dun like it when i have to report everything, including where i go and who i go out with everytime. i dun like it when i have to think so much, taking into the consideration of the benefits/feelings of other ppl when i want to do something. sometimes, i feel so bored and sometimes, i even feel lonely. i want to go some places to relax or have fun with frens, but 1st, i will hav to get permission. in short, i am losing 80% of my freedom.
however, as i am writing all these, i strted to realise tht beside losing my 'freedom', things might be harder if i dun gt kuching. 1st thing 1st, i will have to find accommodation and mode of transportation to hospital if i am working in other states. then, i might feel lonelier as i dun have family beside me now and no one can guarantee that i will be able 2 stay with frens. No doubt, i will gain bc 100% freedom but then at tht time, i am on my own.
there is always good and bad in everything. i dunno if i will be staying in kuching for the rest of my life and become a kuching si lai.....but at least, i can strt shopping for new furniture for my room......( but still, i am not smiling.)
8 comments:
Its always good to start ur career back home. Work for few years first, when u can ''fly'' dy, baru go away :)
Dont la be too enthusiastic wanna go away so early, u never knw whether u can cope or nt yet :)
And the most Important thing is, when i go back home, at least still got ppl there to drive me around..hohoho
Have Funla...
hey u gonna b in kuching, gud la your family is around ma..but i can understand the feeling of "unfreedomness". i've been away for so long i cant stay at home more than 2 weeks now..can go gila.
btw i'm coming home in dec..guess i have to make an effort to go to kuching la if i wanna c u..haih..
-minnie-
u shld b smiling la ah choo...
soon u wil realize u wil b happy in kuching..then u wil b laughin..
hahahaha...thanks guys!!! now i am happy dy!! not that pessimistic dy!! i will enjoy life here. ;)
minnie, come kuching la, can visit kuching also mah...hiak hiak...or mayb we can go somewhere for a trip...must make the effort to meet up oo, so long nvr c u dy...
anonymous, i am laughing dy...thank you.
tps, thanks ar...but ho, i still won drive u around when u r bc.;p
Good lar, can work in Kuching hehe... Everything happened for a reason. Hehe....
there are times when you're alone and it's part of life. Find some friends mix around and things will get a bit better for you. And good friends and family will always be thinking bout you yer, so dun say you're lonely... keep cool go drink some tuak hahah... and airasia, i got no complains lah hor... the cheapest in asia... can't do anything bout it! =)
i know what u mean by not having the freedom and gotta report everything u do..summo we've stayed out before n tasted the freedom..reli can go crazy when we suddenly got tied down like this..
but think bout in a few yrs time, u might leave home and never stay with ur family again..when u have ur own family...so just appreciate the time u have with them now...*i have to tell this to myself too..hehe*
hao sei kia, tak tak jit bo mood? haha! kuching food very nice la... think about that and u'll be happier that u're in kuching! i want laksa!!! yum yum...
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